I'm Human ok!!!!

I am only human, and humans make mistakes from time to time! I have slipped up a bit and have found myself munching throughout the days when I'm not at work! Now at least it isn't candy or high sugary foods however its chips, pretzels and those kinds of snack foods. I have found myself not really eating normal meals rather then snacking small amounts here and there.

Remember this surgery doesn't fix your mind and everything you used to do. It's a tool that helps your stomach understand when your full and what not. Everyday I am training my brain that my old ways aren't the right ways and I have to remind myself you can't eat that or you shouldn't be eating that. So for those who think the surgery is the easy or lazy way out of losing weight your wrong. It's hard work everyday just like if I was doing it the natural way! The holidays have gotten me! But I'm jumping back into it and stopping the snacking. I am not going to be that percent that ruins this and stretches my stomach out! That's it for now, just had to write a quick post about the difficulties of this kind of addiction.

Baking Day!!!

Hey guys! It's the holidays and you know what that means? Lots and lots of baking and sweets! Today a few friends came over and we baked away!! I am very proud of myself. Normally I would eat the cookie dough and tons of cookies, however today I had a bite of one cookie!!! I'm so shocked at how much I have changed over the last few months since surgery! I am making up cookie baskets to bring to work and give to friends because I don't need these staring me in the face everyday. Lol. The house smells so good right now and I just want to go sit at the table and eat one of each! I'd say today was pretty good on many levels. 1. Had great company.
2. Made amazing cookies
3. Didn't cheat and eat my stomach into a coma, followed the diet and made good choices. :)

If your lucky you might get some of these beauties.
Until next time.

Update! 11/30/18

So I know I just wrote on Thanksgiving but I have an exciting announcement! I am 97 pounds down. That means I am 3 pounds away from my first 100 pounds! I stepped on the scale not expecting to see that much more weight gone and BAM just like that 97 pounds, I found a picture of myself from my cousins wedding in August of 2017 and didn't realize how much difference you can see! A little over a year apart and you can see it in my face and stomach area! I about cried when I saw these 2 pictures in comparison. 1. Because I let myself get so big and so unhealthy. 2. Because I am actually losing weight, becoming healthy and seeing the difference as I go along!

Every time I think I am not moving along as quickly as I should be I see a before and after picture and realize I am going at the pace my body wants me to and I am losing weight and inches! I feel more confident everyday, my energy level has gone up tremendously, I sleep better at night, clothes are fitting differently and in a good way, I have more options on what to wear and I just feel healthier.

Now I still have a ways to go until I hit my goal weight, but I would say these first 97 pounds down feel AMAZING! I am never going back to that old Katie. The one thing they say with the surgery is it isn't a permanent fix, you can re-stretch your stomach, go back to eating the old ways, not stay on top of doing your exercises and you can ruin all the hard work you put into it. Well I will tell you this I am going to give it 110% and everything I have not to ruin this life changing opportunity!

Thanksgiving Time! 11/22/18

What a Bariatric patients plate looks like! 
Thanksgiving is here and I can't believe it! I told my mom I would make Thanksgiving dinner this year so she can enjoy time with Elijah my nephew (obviously her Grandson). She said that was awesome! As I am cooking dinner I don't feel the urge to nibble and munch on the food I am making so that is pretty awesome! I am having a great time, however a little nervous to actually sit down with the family and try to eat this amazing food. I can't have bread, pasta, rice, tortilla's or anything like that because when it hits your stomach it expands, 1. causing you to fill up faster, 2. doing it to often can cause stomach stretching, and 3. Major discomfort. Well lets see stuffing is a bread, potatoes are high carbs, mac and cheese is a pasta... So what did I do? I had a tiny spoonful of each item and maybe only ate 1-2 bites of each item!

My 17 month old Nephew putting away
more then myself lol! 
Let's put it this way my 17 month old nephew ate more then I did! That says something about what the surgery can do for your stomach!  Normally I would stuff myself but obviously wasn't able to. I did stop when my your full symptoms began which would be runny nose and hiccups. lol I was proud of myself for not taking a dinner roll, eating my turkey and mashed potatoes before taking 1 bite of mac and cheese and 1 bite of stuffing. I'd say I did pretty good! Dessert was homemade mini apple pies, pumpkin pies and banana cream pies. I had 1 pumpkin and I was good to go! And I was proud of myself for not drinking during the meal! With this surgery they say you can drink anything 30 min before eating, during eating and 30 minutes after eating because fluids will fill you up and you won't be able to eat anything! I had the hardest time with that in the beginning and I learned my lesson and never did it again!
Black Friday Shopping!

Let's just say later that night I worked off the calories I ate at dinner while I black Friday shopped! :D It was nice being able to order a size smaller in my thanksgiving shirt! Another goal hit, dropping a shirt size as I go along!
Shirt says My Favorite Turkeys call me Auntie!

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone! Now onto another hard Holiday with tons of baked goodies!

November Already 11/9/18

Man is time flying. This month will be harder then the others. My birthday (which means birthday cake), Thanksgiving and all that fun stuff!!! I am nervous about thanksgiving but know I have the support and can do it!

November 6th. My Birthday: Okay so today has been a great day, went and got my eyebrows done as a birthday treat to myself and my mom bought a small birthday cake. I was good and had one SMALL slice. It filled that sweet tooth and I was surprised I wasn't wanting more after that! Baby steps people!

November 7th. Starting a new job: I got a new job working at McDonald's with my friend Samantha! I am super nervous because I have been working from home this past year and haven't had to be on my feet for long periods. Luckily they are willing to work with me to ease me back into the full blown on my feet thing. Today was my first day and I did 6 hours, normally I would be sore, needing to sit, in lots of pain and sweaty... However none of that happened today and I could have gone for another few more hours! Shhh don't tell Sam that ;) Felt great to be back on my feet working and not in pain!
Day 2 of work and I am ready to get going, day 2 went great and so did day 3! The first week is complete and I feel amazing. However my legs and feet are sore but that's to expect! But when I say sore it's not a sore that's going to keep me from getting up this weekend and doing stuff around the house! I am taking all Halloween down and putting up the fall/Thanksgiving like decorations.
So far I am liking the Job and being out and about doing things. I will check back in a few days!

3 month check up! 10/29/18

It's the morning of my 3 month check up and I am nervous. I feel like I am progressing really good but I see others on my support pages on FB progressing faster. So when I go in I will talk to my nutritionist about it. So 75 pounds ago I had to get rides to and from the doctor because I couldn't walk much and to get to and from the U of MN where this doctor is I have to take a bus, light rail and walk 7 blocks. It's so embarrassing but it happened. Well today I said I am doing better and going to do the walking. I put my headphones in and walked to the bus, then to the light rail and the 7 blocks to the doctors office! OMG I felt amazing, I wasn't sore, sweaty or anything that had happened in the past. I even did it all to go home as well! I would say that's a positive to this whole journey!

Okay so my doctors appointment. I am down 85 pounds! Yay me! My labs are all normal except my protein level which was to be expected since I am not getting my protein in. They said I am losing weight at a great pace and am doing everything right. Now the stomach cramping problem, the doctor didn't seem concerned and said some people recover at different paces and maybe my stomach needs a little extra time. Not to force myself to eat so much solid foods and it's okay to add a liquid/pureed food in there here and there. I said good to know. My nutritionist wants me to write down in a food diary everything that's making my stomach cramp and causing me to vomit and maybe that will help find those triggers. She said to continue to try getting my protein in as good as I can. I am going to buy the protein shakes, water flavoring, soup mixes and a couple of other things from here and hopefully those will help! The protein shake mix is flavorless so I can put it on oatmeal, or anything else I can tolerate. My doctor said if it continues or gets worse to come in. So fingers crossed it gets better rather then worse.

Side note! Halloween is in 2 days and my mom brought out the Halloween candy!!!
I want some so bad, one piece isn't going to hurt correct??? Okay so I caved and had a kit kat! Bad Katie BAD BAD KATIE!!! Let's just say I was miserable and didn't think to do it again. See having the surgery isn't the fix to everything, I still have those cravings and still have to work just as hard as those who lost weight naturally to just say no!
Happy Halloween everyone! Until next time :)


It has been 3 months! 10/24/18

JEANS!!!!
It's 10/24/18 and as I write this I am 3 months post op and couldn't feel better. I am officially 75 pounds down and I feel AMAZING! 

I just went shopping for some new underwear. I know that's weird but to me it's nice to see the sizes of my clothing go down! I am currently down 3 pant sizes, 2 shirt sizes and a bra size lol. You can start to see a difference in my face and stomach! I can't see much in my thighs which can be discouraging but I know I have lost inches there and I will lose weight in different areas at different times. My arms are getting a little excess skin and I am hating it, I am doing all I can workout wise to keep them from getting extreme so fingers crossed it helps. I pulled out all my old jeans the other day and they all fit super comfortably. My mom said they are kind of big in the leg area which was a great feeling. If you know me I love my leggings and that's all I would wear so to be able to put jeans on and feel comfortable is a big deal!

75 Pounds down and NOT going back!

I have to go to my doctor today to get my 3 month labs done and will get the results when I go in for my 3 month follow up. I have been taking my vitamins everyday and trying my hardest to watch my levels on everything. I have had problems getting the amount of protein I need in because I still have some stomach cramping after I eat and when I eat high protein foods I get nauseous and I vomit. It's the worst feeling, I will be chatting with my nutritionist and doctor when I go in for my 3 months follow up on the 29th. I hope it isn't something I have done wrong, this makes me regret the surgery. But then I look in the mirror and see a Katie that is losing weight, gaining energy, less aches and pains and can actually get on the floor and play with her nephew more so I say that's a win!

  That's all for today! I will write with my lab results on the 29th!

I got a gym membership today!!!! 10/8/18

Today I decided to take the leap and get a gym membership!!!

I went to the YMCA and got myself a membership! Being able to go to the gym and actually work out will be amazing! I am starting to get some excess skin and I don't want to have skin removal surgery so I am going to try my hardest to tighten my skin the natural way of staying hydrated and gaining muscle to tighten my skin!

Things are looking up!



Day 1 of the gym! Ok I am sore I will say that! I did 30 minutes on the treadmill, 10 on the elliptical and 30 minutes of weight training. My legs and arms are going to be rubber and sore! The next day I woke up and decided to go again! That never happens. Day 2 was great, worked on my legs on the weight machine and felt great, but some good tunes on to keep me moving. Day 3 I went again! And then again day 4! That's 4 days in a row, that NEVER happens! It was feeling great to get up and go to the gym!

 The weekend came around and I wasn't letting that stop me from going. Friday night came up, I was done with work for the day and decided to keep going. So I went to the gym. Except this time I went swimming. I love the water and could swim for hours! I put my suit on and went into the lap pool! Before I knew it I had been swimming for an hour and it felt amazing! I wasn't sore either. The feeling of sticking to this gym thing this past week has been amazing! I think because the staff is nice and everyone working out there are kind and not staring at me like a fat lady who's trying to workout helps a lot. I bought myself workout clothes last time I was going to work on losing weight and I stuck to that for a week! The clothes go put into the bottom drawer of my dresser and never looked at them again. So I have all these new workout clothes and I am putting them to good use! Who says you can't go to the gym in style?

I am very proud of myself because I made it to the gym 13 times this month and that has never happened before! It feels great to be motivated and to do something for myself!

2 Months out! 09/24/18

Today is September 24th and I am officially 2 months out! I had my 1 month check up last month and things where going great! However every time I ate something that wasn't oatmeal I threw up :( Couldn't hold anything down! I was miserable! So my nutritionist suggested I move back to more pureed foods over soft foods because maybe my stomach hasn't healed fully. The doctor said everyone's stomachs are different and heal at different paces, mine might just be taking longer. Go figure mine is being stubborn!  I was excited to move onto more solid foods but don't want to injure the stomach or push my body to much! So until I get the all clear I am staying on soft foods. Luckily I can have like mashed potatoes, and things like that.


I have found I don't like eggs as much as I used to which stinks because that is a good source of protein which I am having a hard time getting the amount I need in! But I do however love almonds now which I never did before. The doctor and nutritionist did say my taste buds may change but not this big of a change! Oh well maybe it's a sign for me to try more foods.


Time has been flying by and I can now walk 1-2 miles without having to take breaks, without breaking a sweat and all and all just longer. 2 months ago I could barely do the stairs or walk a couple blocks without being out of breath, needing to take a break or be all sweaty! So I can tell the weight I have lost has helped my mobility and what not. Another thing I can see a difference in is when I am walking I don't have so many aches and pains. My lower back isn't hurting as much and my legs aren't on fire! I think I may get a gym membership soon! :O What??? Me get a gym membership??? Did I just say that??? Wow I must be a newer Katie!

Until next time! :D
                                                                                                                                                               

As time goes by, I fit more and more outfits! 09/23/18


It's been a while since I wrote on here! I have been super busy with getting used to things and making sure I am sticking to my plan! It has been tough but so worth it! Each day is different and new and I have seen so many changes! The other day I went into my closet where I have all my clothes that didn't fit or don't fit. It was like Christmas morning! I have so many new and amazing things to wear. Before surgery and losing weight I only stuck to leggings and t-shirts. Shirts I haven't been able to wear in forever or never worn are starting to fit me! I can see a difference in my face! It's slimming down and the small parts of acne have gone down! Things are looking great. I will be moving to solid foods soon so that will be exciting!



These are pictures of my progress over the last few weeks! The bottom one is from my nieces baptism! I loved being able to wear a dress I had never worn because I never fit it! I straightened my hair for the first time in forever and got all dolled up! I was feeling great!

I still have some work to do on my thighs because those are making me miserable but I know it's a process and every inch of my body will lose weight and inches at their own rate, just wish it would be the same time! Can you believe I have more and more things to wear and it takes me forever to pick out an outfit? Being a girl is fun when you have clothes to pick from!

3 Weeks post op! 08/14/18

Not the best picture of my face lol. But you can
see in my side profile that I have lost a few
inches! 
I had surgery 3 weeks ago today! I feel great! I was able to move onto the next phase in the diet. Let me explain this a little for those who don't know.
Here is how that works! 
Day 2- Day 7 clear liquids.
Day 7- Day 21 pureed.
Day 21- Day 60 soft foods.
Once I hit 2 month and get the okay I could move to solid normalish foods still in small portions.

My stomach can't handle more then 1/2-3/4 cup of food each meal. My nutritionist only wants me to eat 3 meals a day and try to limit myself 0-1 snacks a day! Drink lots of water they say! High protein, low carbs and only like 10g of sugar a day! The hardest part is getting my protein, I have to have 60g of protein and it's super hard when you can only eat certain things and not much of it! I can't have more then 40g of carbs and 10g of sugar! I can only drink water, watered down apple juice, grape juice or cranberry juice. I can only have a tiny 1/4 of juice a day, but if I don't have it at all that's ideal!  

Plate 1 before starting journey!
Plate 2 during the first 6 months before surgery!
Plate 3 what I can eat now after surgery! 

I went and tried on some clothing I have and it's fitting much looser and better. Making me feel really great! I have had days where I regret the surgery but seeing pictures like the one above and seeing my energy level go up makes me remember why I had this surgery! The only reason I say I regret it was because I couldn't eat what I wanted or drink what I wanted.

Remember this isn't a fix for everything! I have to retrain my brain to the new diet and I also have to train my eyes as well! The only thing this surgery does for myself is help me realize I am full and can no longer eat everything on my plate! It isn't a fix to my food addiction rather then a tool to help my brain and body know you are full! My stomach was so large I didn't ever feel full or satisfied, I always went from hungry to miserable! The first time I felt full I didn't know what was going on! I was terrified I did something wrong. As time went on I realized the signs my body was telling me to indicate I was full. When I have eaten enough I get the hick ups and a runny nose. Each person is different but that's mine.

I have seen my energy level increase and I can walk a little more then before surgery! My depression has gone down a little bit and I have been feeling great! Like I said clothes are fitting different.

2 months out! Aug 27th! 


Well that's all, chat soon!




Week 1 Recap! 7/31/18

So I have officially been post op for 1 week and 2 days today! This week has been so different let me tell you! So many emotions going on, good, bad and everything.



Let's start out with a few things.
1. Pain was very little which was nice, I only had to take 1 pain pill the entire week! 
9 days post op! Down 53 Pounds since
start of journey, 13 pounds since
Surgery!!! 
2. I went to my 1 week check up today! Incisions are looking great and I can move onto the next stage of food which is full liquids! There's more to this story so I will get there soon! 
3. If I worked from home I could go back to work lol. Thank goodness for working from home and on a computer! 
4. Teddy has been very comforting and knows I have been through something big. He's been full of snuggles, full of love and knows not to jump on my stomach and that I can't really bend to pick him up! I just love this dog! 

So here's a recap of the week!

Day 7 (1 week after surgery) I had to go to the ER because one of my incisions opened and I had a huge itchy rash around it. Also was very dizzy and sick. Mom and Lisa Jackson took me to the ER at the U of MN, best part was stepping on the scale and seeing I was down 11 pounds since surgery!!! It was found that I had a delayed reaction to the tape/bandaged used to cover the incision so was given Benadryl to help that. Luckily the incision that opened was the smallest one so it was ok and didn't need to be re-closed and it would re-close on it's own time just to keep it clean! Lastly the dizziness was from being dehydrated so they gave me an IV. The benadryl knocked me out and I fell asleep for the most part. Mom and Lisa where laughing at me the whole time they said.

I was getting really hangry on day 5 because 3 days before surgery I was only aloud clear liquids, then was told by the discharge resident that I had to do only clear liquids until my 1 week check up! You don't know how hard this is! When you have an addiction to food like I did you want to eat, and it didn't help that my sister and her family where in town and having one of my FAVORITE meals! I was getting tired of jello, soup broth, and water! So I was looking through my paperwork from the nutritionist and it said I could start full liquids (next step up in recovery diet) so I was confused. I sent my nutritionist an email through the MyChart and she wrote back and said I could have started the full liquid on day 3!!!!! I was furious, I had been doubting this whole thing and miserable and yelling at my mom because I was hungry and tired of the same thing everyday! 




I went to the store and got some full liquid items which included sugar free pudding, soups i.e cream of chicken, tomato things like that and milk! It was heaven! I never thought I would be in awww at how amazing cream of chicken tasted! This kind of put me a week behind schedule with moving up in the food line. 


It has been a tough week but will be worth it! Until next time! 




Post op day 1! 7/25/18

Hey Everyone,

I am writing this the morning after my surgery! I am in a little pain but it is from the gas that they use to inflate your stomach with. I slept ok, on and off for the most part. I was so thirsty but so afraid to drink anything so I just ignored those thoughts and went back to sleep. I couldn't lay flat because it hurt to much and I just couldn't get comfortable so I just laid sitting up in bed. I don't remember much from yesterday except maybe a few things.

The nurse evening nurse did have to threaten me to drink something and use the bathroom otherwise she would have to hook me up to a catheter. I couldn't really use the bathroom because it hurt to use my abdominal muscles to push and my mind was playing games with me. I know I wasn't going to rip the new seam in my stomach or do any damage but in the back of my head the fear of me pushing to use the bathroom would cause me to tear the staples. Finally late that night I went and they said ok no catheter. Thank God!

This morning went fine, woke up called my mom, got blood work, staples taken out and discharged and went home. The pillow my mom bought me worked so amazing for the car ride home because every little bump or stop would cause a tiny bit of pain. So holding the pillow close to my stomach has helped tremendously. Pain level is maybe a 2! That's pretty amazing!

That's all for today! Will write more later this week!

Surgery Day!!!! 7/24/18

July 24th, 2018!!! The day my life would change, I was joining as us weight loss surgery patients say the "losers bench".
The night before was tough,
July 23rd, 2018: I was super tired but just couldn't fall asleep. I was excited, nervous and my mind would just not shut off! I think I may have only gotten 3 hours of sleep but that was okay because I was going to be taking the best nap soon enough lol.
I had to take a shower and use this antiseptic soap which made my body a little dry and I couldn't put lotion on or anything, I got into my PJ's, sat on the couch and talked to my mom for a bit. Then it was time to go to sleep!


7/24/18
I opted to receive the Sleeve Gastrectomy (VSG) which is where they go in laparoscopic through 5 incisions and remove 80% of my stomach (and I mean literally take your stomach out of your body). My stomach went from a large stomach into a small skinny banana that can hold up for 1/2 cup of food at a time! This was the best option for my weight, age and problems I have had (acid reflex). They use a hot stapler to seal off the old stomach from the new stomach and your stomach will eventually grow over and absorb the staples. Research it if your interested, it's really cool!  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bEZu93jiPmc


6:00am- Alarm went off and I didn't want to get out of bed. But i knew it was time to get up and take another shower, this time I couldn't put deodorant, body spray, hair spray, lotion or anything. I felt naked without deodorant at least.
7:00am- It was time to leave for the hospital, I had my overnight bag packed, new sheets on my moms bed (She let me stay in her bed because it was on the main floor) for when I came home the next day and made sure everything was set. Grabbed some water because I was aloud to drink only water until 2 hours prior to surgery, this helped a lot because my mouth was dry from being nervous.
8:00am- Check into the pre-op unit and waited in the waiting room until I was called back. Luckily while I waited I met a lady who was there with her daughter, this lady had had weight loss surgery 18 months before and looked amazing! She gave me some great pointers and eased my nerves.
8:10am- Katie Roderick, yep that's me! I had my mom hold my bags and wait in the waiting room until I was situated. I had the sweetest nursing assistant ever. She weighed me and it was in kg. I said what's that in pounds, she looked it up and BAM I lost the 40 pounds I needed to, so now we can continue with surgery. They took blood, I got in my gown, IV set up which was cool to see because they used the vein scanner so I could see the veins in my hand and everyone came in one at a time. Man the anesthesiologist was HOT hahaha. Then my mom and brother came in and sat and kept me company until the surgeon came in signed off on everything. I told my nurse that my IV was super uncomfortable and hurt badly. He was a jerk and just flushed it was saline.
9:55am Here is the best part, the nurse anesthesiologist comes in puts a patch behind my ear for my nausea, says they will give me Zofran right before I leave the OR to help with any side effects but the best part was she said Hi Katie my name is such and such want to hear something funny? I said sure, she told me she was the nurse anesthesiologist in my surgery when I had my tonsils out 5 years previous. That eased my nerves so much and I thought it was cool. I told her about my IV and she said as soon as I was asleep they would put a new one in where it wouldn't be painful and that way I wouldn't have to be awake and poked.

10:00am Surgeon comes in signs off and says see you soon! Then I gave my mom and brother hugs and said see you after surgery! They wheeled me off, I remember telling them once I got to the OR this is nothing like Grey's Anatomy, they all laughed and said your not the only one who thinks that ;) lol. As they where getting me moved and situated I remember talking to them and joking around and I felt at ease, I cried a bit from nerves and the last thing I remember was telling them be gentle with me hahaha. Next thing I know I am waking up to a nurse saying take deep breaths Katie, your out of surgery and in recovery!

My Surgeon told my mom everything went wonderful, my liver looked amazing, stomach was in great shape and there wasn't much fat content inside my abdomen, that I mainly had fat on the outside! He said those 40 pounds made a huge difference for my surgery and he was proud of me!

I remember asking for a little tray because I felt a little sick but nothing compared to my other surgery, I remember being in a little pain but not a lot. I don't even remember them taking me up to my room! I remember waking up in my room asking for nausea meds and seeing my mom which put a smile on my face!

My nurse told every other nurse how awesome it was to have me because I didn't need many meds to be handed out, I was laid back and I was up and walking 3 hours after going to my room. He said I was the easiest patient on his list! He was awesome!!!

My mom was sweet and brought me a super soft furry pillow to hug, and some super cute smaller sized bras because I have never been able to wear the cute ones just plain white ones hahaha and a sippy cup (they suggest drinking from a sippy cup for the first month to adjust your body to smaller slower sips). I love my mom! She stayed with me until about 7pm and then went home and came back the next day to bring me home! They brought me some sugar free apple juice and said I can't have no more then 1 little medicine cup an hour. My mom thought she was going to have to patrol me and watch me, let's just say it took me the whole time I was in the hospital to drink one of those small containers of juice lol.

The incisions where super small and not much pain, the only pain I had was from the gas they use to inflate your stomach during surgery, it was so uncomfortable and the pressure hurt. But getting up and I know TMI but passing gas or burping helped release the pressure. I remember waking up and asking where the fan came from and my mom said you said you where really hot so they brought you one. I also remember waking up and asking what the thing on my abdomen was, my mom said you said you had cramping and pain so the nurse brought you a gel heating pad lol. That heating pad was amazing, I so wish I could have brought it home! lol.


The next morning the resident came in removed my bandages, the staples they used to close the incisions and re-taped it. Then a few hours later I was discharged and ready to go home! I got home and literally slept the whole day! Didn't have much pain and only took like 2 pain pills post-hospital!

I'd say it was a pretty successful stay and surgery! But that's all for now! I will update you all later!

The big moment! 7/16/18

July 16th 2018, I was approved for my surgery and needed to do my pre-anesthesia consultation, I was nervous because you never know what they may find doing a physical and all that fun stuff!! I went in and thought it was going to be a 2 hour appointment like they said it would be. I was only in for 1 hour! Maybe it was because I didn't have any prior surgeries besides a tonsillectomy, maybe it was because my family had a pretty healthy (for the most part) history, maybe it was because I was "healthy" besides the weight part.
Who know's but I was happy it was quick! My heart sounded great, lungs sounded healthy, abdomen was perfect, they took blood and sent me on my way! It was good that they have this because I was able to tell them and have them put in my chart that I have post-anesthesia nausea. I remember after getting my tonsils out I woke up in the recovery room and just threw up and was nauseous and miserable. So they put it in my chart and that really helped come surgery day!

Now it was time to focus because in a week I would be having the big surgery! I needed to lose 2 pounds by that day! I continued to be on my best behavior and stick to the diet. Something a lot of Bariatric patients will tell you is they have a big meal before they start their surgery prep! Mine was Asia Chinese food and it was amazing!
Each doctor is different when it comes to the pre-surgery prep. Some have you start 2 weeks prior, some 1 week, mine was 3 days so July 22nd! When I say pre-surgery I don't mean eating and everything I mean full blown prep. You have to shrink your liver a bit, do a bowel prep and everything! I had to drink a bottle of magnesium citrate each day which tasted
HORRIBLE!! I had to plug my nose and down it as quick as I could! This helped with the bowel prep. For the liver prep I was on a strict clear liquids only diet, what are clear liquids exactly? Well it's sugar free jello, coffee, water, tea, soup broth, sugar free Popsicles, apple juice, pretty much things that you would in a way be able to see a light shine through it when it's in liquid form. That was horrible, I was hangry lol. July 22nd: I remember going to my nephew Levi's birthday party and everyone was having fruit, pizza, pop and best of all cake and I had my apple juice and jello lol. It was hard to not have a bite of pizza but I made it through and everyone there was so supportive and made it easy for me to talk to them all about this big move!
Now once again I had it a little easier seeing I didn't have to torture myself and stop smoking or drinking so that was a big plus!

Now it was time to mentally prepare for surgery day! Until then!!!

Harder then I thought

Down 5 pounds up 5 pounds! 

     So once I got approved to move forward with my checklist I was like 40 pounds! piece of cake! Welp my friends I was wrong! It was so hard because you crave everything you can't have, more then what you should be having... ummmm everything that got you to this point!!! It literally took me the full 6 months to lose the 40 pounds. One month i'd go in and I was down 15 pounds, the next month i'd go in and I was back up 5 pounds, next month i'd be back down 10 pounds. It was a roller coaster. The only nice thing was I could eat just about anything in moderation and as long as I was getting 60 grams of protein in a day and 84 oz of water in each day.


Now the hardest part about all this dieting is I couldn't drink ANYTHING 30 minutes before eating, during eating and 30 minutes after eating because liquids fill you up and you won't want to eat as much of the nutrients. This was also getting you ready for what you will have to do post-surgery.
I had to follow the "plate diet" which consists of 3 slots, protein, non-starchy vegetables and a carbs. Now your probably asking shouldn't she be cutting out her carbs. Well my diet consisted of high protein, low to no carbs and sugar. But with the plate method you would start by eating your protein, move to your non-starchy vegetable and then move to your carb. The goal is to eat slow and chew to applesauce consistency and hopefully by the time you get to that carb section your full and don't want to eat it anyways. And mind you the carb section was very small, I could only have like 1/4 cup of pasta, rice, or anything that was carb related so it wasn't that much!


I cut out all pop, juice and anything that had sugar and added calories to liquids. I was addicted to water flavoring because I can't stand the taste of plain water. The flavoring has no added calories, sugars, carbs, sodium nothing!!! I ended up drinking more then my 84 oz a day and that was amazing! I think cutting out all the sugary drinks helped my acne as well! :) Double win!

The nutritionist had given me multiple handouts, what 100 calorie snacks I could have, what kind of protein to have and how much, mindful eating tips. You name it I got it, those where so useful because I didn't realize there was so many options. Eating healthy isn't as bad as you think, you can have just about anything as long as its in moderation and low sugar!

Now I had it a little easier then some, I was only addicted to 1 thing that needed to change and that was food! Some people have to altar multiple things like food, smoking, drinking and all that jazz. Luckily I didn't smoke or drink so I just had to change the one thing and that was hard enough, I can't imagine having to change multiple things!

Well until next time! :D

My eye opener and big decision! October 2017

As most of you know I have tried many ways to lose weight. Weight Watchers, Beach body, the normal diet and exercise and even met with a weight management specialist at the U of M weight clinic where they put me on multiple weight loss medications and nothing you name it I tried it. I struggled with it all and didn't see anything happening. Sometimes I wasn't losing weight but I was gaining weight!

October 14, 2017 I went to the pumpkin patch with my family like we do every year. Except this year was different, I had a hard time walking all over, my bones and muscles hurt a lot and I was miserable. We took a family photo by the big apple statue like we do every year. My sister posted them and OMG I started to cry at what I looked like. I knew I had gotten big and let myself go but that picture was the eye opener I needed. I was beyond bigger then I had ever imagined.


I talked with my moms friend who had previously went through the weight loss surgery herself and decided I needed to look into this. I spoke with my primary doctor about it, spoke long and hard with my therapist about it and did my research on weight loss surgery. I decided after doing all that to go to the U of M weight loss clinic and see what my options where. November 1st 2017 was when my life was going to change. My mom came with me and that's when I met with the weight loss surgery physician assistant, went over my medical history, what needed to be done to have surgery and a bunch of other stuff. I was going to need to complete a long checklist of multiple things which included.

-Form a support network
-Lose 40 pounds by yourself for insurance to help pay
-Obtain a letter of support from Primary Physician
-Obtain a letter of support from mental therapist
-Complete a 3 part psychiatric evaluation and get the OK from them
-Complete 6 months of one on one nutritional visits (which I learned a lot of useful information and I had a really cool nutritionist)
-Get a bunch of blood drawn and lab work completed
-Continue to meet with weight medical management specialist
-Attend information meeting
-Watch multiple before, after and other videos

I wasn't able to schedule a surgery date until all of the above was done, but once my date was scheduled I still had more I needed to do.

-Attend a pre-op anesthesia visit and pass the physical portion
-More Pre-Surgery labs
-Sign Consent forms and other papers
-Nurse visits

And the worst part was if I didn't meet the 40 pound requirement by the morning of my surgery when they weighed me in my surgery would be cancelled!


The beginning of my weight problems!


Hey Everyone!!

A little about me! 

I'm Katie and this is going to be my blog about my weight loss journey! For those that don't know me well I have struggled with my weight since I was just a kid. It has been a difficult journey but I am excited to be on track to losing the weight and being the Katie I have always wanted to be!     
I am currently 27 years old and live with my mom, grandma and brother. I graduated with my degree in Meeting and Event Management in 2016. I am looking for that perfect job which has been difficult, but I know it's out there. I am a super kind, loving and fun person. I love to be creative and do many DIY things. Another thing I love is baking and trying new recipes. 


How did I get to this weight?

    It all started when I was in elementary school. I loved school and all my friends, but there was that one day where it all changed. I had a difficult time in math and I had a question for the teacher about a specific problem. I asked the question and then everyone laughed and kids where calling me stupid. I didn't think it was a stupid question! From then on I was called names and treated differently because I didn't understand math like the others.
 
   How does math have anything to do with my weight problem? Well because I was being bullied I turned to food and TV. Those 2 things made me feel at peace! I would come home from school and watch TV and eat whatever I wanted. Who would have thought it would turn into the biggest problem of my life. The bullying kept getting worse and then it got to where I was being bullied about not understanding math but because I was gaining weight and was becoming a bigger kid. It wasn't just one person is was multiple.



Where everything went downhill! 

   The bullying continued through elementary school and got worse in middle school. Those 3 years where the toughest for me! I hated school, would lie about being sick, continued the bad eating habits and just all around hated life. I told my mom once about the girls teasing me and she did what any mom would do, she went to the school and talked with the principle. I thought that would help but unfortunately it only made things worse. Not only was I being teased about my weight but I was being called a tattle tale. From then on I didn't tell my mom things because I knew she would try to help and that would make things worse then they even where. There was times when I even thought about ending it all. Glad I didn't because today I am a better person because of it.

   One of the worst parts about middle school was not only was the kids bullying me but my gym teacher bullied me! He knew I was overweight and didn't like gym class. Kids would get upset because I was taking forever to finish my warm up laps and the teacher made me continue them in front of all the other kids until I did all 10 laps! This teacher knew I had a bully in the class, one day we went to gym class and was going to play a game of line soccer. The gym teacher gave me the number 12, and on the other side guess who got number 12? That's right the girl who was out to make my life living hell! Now this teacher knew she was bullying me but he didn't care. He called my number I ran to kick the ball and the girl wrapped her ankle around mine and made me fall and land on it. I was in so much pain that the teacher just said shake it off your fine.

   After gym I went to the nurses office and she called my mom. I wouldn't let her take my sock and shoe off because it hurt. My mom said I was fine and can finish school. Now your probably thinking that's so mean of her mom? Well now that I think about it I did cry wolf a lot because of how much I hated it that she probably thought I just didn't want to be there. So I hobbled around school all day, came home and took my shoes and socks off. My mom saw how swollen and black and blue it was, she felt bad and took
me to the ER! It was sprained and my doctor gave me a air gel brace and crutches, per doctors orders I was told to stay off of it for 2 days and keep it elevated while in bed. So I missed 2 days of school, that was heaven for me! Until I went back to school. Everyone was so sad to see I was hurt except 3 people. The 2 girls who bullied me and my gym teacher! The teacher in front of everyone called me a liar and that I was just lazy and didn't want to participate. This was just my way of getting out of gym class. That really hurt!

   The bullying continued through 11th Grade! Hey high school girls can be just a cruel as middle school girls! Luckily my middle school bullies didn't go to my high school! But there was a fresh batch of them ready to go! Luckily I had amazing friends to help keep my mood up and head held high!

Whew that was a lot! But that's how I became obese and miserable. I am so excited you all are here with me and supporting me while I take this leap and work on my weight loss! Until next time! :D